random thoughts today.

lynette texted me:

i've read about it.  but i look at her, and she's not.  but oh!  how people love to destroy good people.  good things.  wish we can fight back for her. 

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i must always remember that –

to live a creative life, we must lose our fear of being wrong.

                                                         — joseph chilton pearce

children’s party in my mind.

when mimi sent me an mms of marti's picture, i can't help but imagine meeting her in person.  my imagination did not stop there.  i thought about my favorite kids, together, in one children's party.  we'd have colorful hats, lots of balloons, yummy cupcakes, overflowing candies, ice cream in different flavors, and children's laughter everywhere.  i imagine meeting T's akio, K's raf, and G's alex again, and meeting for the first time F's trini, M's marcus and matthieu, L's lyssa, Y's nikki, C's patty, Maris' ninia and jan, and J's niña.  all my nephews and nieces will be there, too.  and i will be there to bully the kids.  haha.

it's a nice thought. to have all these kids (and their parents) in one room.  of course, those without kids, but are still kids at heart will be there, too.  i can imagine all the stories and the laughter and the hugs. 

and oh, M's big M and L's lyssa will fall in love at first sight.  *sigh*  and as soon as the adults realize that romance is blooming, we'd start planning for the wedding.  ok, i'm bringing this imagination too far.  haha.

one day.  one day.  we will all be in one room.  in a children's party.  colorful hats and all.

how time flies.

how time flies.  they're already 12 years old.  and already quite responsible.  the twins.

when they were born, we were very excited.  after all, our baby B was already in elementary then.  all of us were always excited to come home early after school or work so we could be with them.  they love to hug and kiss.  i used to read them stories before bed each night, or we'd play on mommy's bed and laugh our hearts out. 

like me and my sisters, they love the beach.  and like us, they love to catch the sunrise.  maybe, it's the artist in them.  even at age three, they appreciate the poetry of the sun rising in the horizon, revealing the clear blue waters and sparkling white sands.  they love sunsets, too.  they get fascinated by how the skies change colors from blue to yellow to orange to red to gray. 

both are doing well in school.  eunie sings so beautifully, he could make it to american idol (then again, he's not american. haha).  eugie draws like his hand has its own mind.  he goes to UP fine arts each summer.  they make us proud.

oh, they just turned 12.  yet, they still allow us to hug and kiss them.  they are never shy to tell us how much they miss us.  "i love you," they'd always end each telephone conversation or each parting with those three little words. 

looking forward to cebu and ticao trips.

dinner at the kitchen was wonderful.  as usual, we talked like we haven’t seen each other for a million years.  we reminisced about our open-water dive and talked about our bantayan trip.  i hope imee will join us because we miss having her around. 

i am excited.  excited about flying to cebu.  i am excited about my trip to ticao.  karla texted me we already have a room reservation.  i hope to get my plane ticket next week.  i’m kinda worried i might not get a slot since it’s peak season.  i can’t wait to spend time with friends, and get to know karla and leah more.  i can’t wait to dive again. 

sent my way.

it feels wonderful when good thoughts are sent your way.  these made me cry.  i'm utterly grateful.

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"you know why she made you ninang of her daughter?  she said that if something happens to them, they will leave their daughter to you.  she thinks you could be a good mother," nette told me.  my heart wanted to burst in joy.  i got teary-eyed.  nothing feels better than being trusted like that. 

and then, mimi texted me to tell me she wants me to be ninang of her baby.  i'm honored.

yesterday, a friendster testi from chelo was such a pleasant surprise. thank you, chel.

"if i could only bribe the Gods, and make it that the next lifetime is NOW so that we can be sisters sooner than we wished for..ai, you made me believe that there are endless possibilities in this world, and that it could happen in one single lifetime to one single person, and that is you. you are everybody's dream friend, sister, daughter, confidante, colleague (and lover,i think Mr. C would agree,*wink wink*)..you make me want to be everything that you are and wish i could be you, even just for a day. you live your life beautifully, and your face is the testament to that…not to mention the fact, i could kill for a hundred coffees in a day just so i could sit in starbucks the entire day, just to listen to you..i cant wait to breathe the same air that you breathe and sit beside you again, whether that is humid dusty air of cebu, or the biting cold wind of europe, until that time, id be contented just hearing your giggles on my mobile..*hugs* "