i am so excited about getting a new camera. and all the possibilities that come with it. i can't sleep.
i have friends who told me: "it's so easy to fall in love with you." hmm, and why am i still single? haha. of course, that's not the point.
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"do you think i have a chance at photography?" i asked the person who knows me very well.
"of course. you have a chance at everything…" he said.
he always believed in my talent. he always believed i can do anything.
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she called me inspiring. she's the one inspiring.
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"will you teach me how to dance?" a really handsome guy from victorias sent me this valentine card right after he saw me dance.
i am madly in love with life. and everything that comes with it, both the pain and the glory. and i am more in love with it now. now, that i've started dreaming again. about the future. about the things i'm going to pursue. about what lies ahead for the people i care about.
and i'm grateful.
yes, grateful.
thank you, yen for the two beautiful books, for the becoming journal and the lovely lovely card. i was so happy when i received them, i cried. thank you, therese for the mascara and the lipstick. i have brighter eyes now and more kissable lips. haha. thank you, nette for the postcards! if only i could frame each of them and hang them on the wall, i would. thank you, fil for all the wonderful thoughts you leave me. and for writing those thoughts.
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i am madly in love with art. and words. and images.
and you.
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love is not an emotion; it's a devotion of one's time, attention and resources to the benefit of another. — don murray, from the book the most important thing i know about… (thanks for the book, yen!)
it is quite amazing how some people could string their feelings together into beautiful words. wett wrote a testi for chin:
I will not ask if you still hold lively conversations with yourself, or if you still dream in color, or if you still hear a tune behind every word you use, or if you still stare at rain splattering on rooftops. I know you do.
You are not like anyone I have ever met. You are funny and beautiful and brilliant and moody. And I know I love you because parts of you have become parts of me.
Wife, you're still a lovely dream.
so simple, yet the words go straight to the heart.
i've made up my mind. i'm pursuing photography. seriously this time.
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i guess, i'll have to learn to accept that FOUR meetings a day, three times a week, will be a natural occurrence in my life. at least, in the next three months.
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"i cried while walking tonight."
"why?" i asked.
"i miss you."
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please remind me how lucky i am. i keep forgetting.
